Lest I forget whom I serve. My God/Creator/Lover is truly out of this world.
This year has been one of the toughest of my life. (As if you haven't been able to pick up on that.) Money has grown scarce and faith razor thin. This year has pushed me in ways that I never expected. I got what I wanted from God, to full-time run my own business. Only to find that it swallowed me whole and spit me out tumbled and confused. Oh the irony.
I fasted a Daniel fast back in March. A very hard time for me, bc as you may know I am in LOVE with food. At the end of the fast NOTHING changed. Nothing happened. Things got HARDER and I was confused. But I held on to the fact that in Daniel, he said it took him three week to receive the answer that he prayed for. In those three weeks there was spiritual warfare. A battle in the heavenly places. I tried to imagine that, as I clenched my jaw and barreled through life. Head down, but heart open.... believing in a better day.
As of late, it seems as though the clouds have parted a bit and blessings are mine. A week ago Sunday I got a call at 12:30p to be on a 3:15p flight to LA. I worked at an event that was a total train wreck from my perspective. But the people running the event were happy. There is a supposed check in the mail that will be almost twice what I was getting paid at GMS. There is a possibility that I can work with them on an on-going basis. I have requested once or twice a month. If this happens it will be a huge answer to prayer. The burden of feeling at every moment of the day that I can't pay my bills is crushing, not only to my wallet, but to my ego.
I had a moment a few weeks ago in church, where I heard God say...."I have better for you....coming. Hang in there." And I'm glad I did. There is nothing like getting more that what you expected.
Not only did I work this event, but I had a friend Lori G. on my first flight to Denver, my flight was oversold to LA so I got a voucher for $400 and immediately after that got a call from my dearest friend Halie Clark that she was in the DENVER airport in the same terminal. It felt like Christmas Day.
Since then I have been working on the Status Community Market, which is coming together really so smoothly. I am so excited to see what my church community will produce.
This past weekend was the Euphoria Fashion Show. This is what I am made for. I loved every minute of it. The fittings, the styling, backstage, hair and make up & the last minute panic. It went really well. Jana was by my side and it was an experience for us both. I had 18 guys debut our Gentleman's Collection. They all looked amazing. I have met some amazing people and have felt like a really positive influence on them. Just excited to see what God is going to do with me in these situations.
And today it's back to reality. It's life. And I am never in doubt that I NEED Christ every step of the way.