There is no fear in love. But perfect love drives out fear, because fear has to do with punishment. The one who fears is not made perfect in love.
I John 4:18
This needs to be tattooed not on me, but inside my brain. I need to make it my life Mantra. I was talking with a dear friend of mine who is just exploring what following Christ, in a sincere way, means and I shared this verse with her and she was shocked. She said it was the most beautiful thing she had ever heard. I forget what it is like to hear these things for the first time. I am in need of a FRESH perspective of what it means to rescued from DEATH into LIFE. What BEAUTY this beholds. We had Baptism at my church last night and Celebrated just this! Those are my favorite nights of all.
I should not have been surprised at the reaction of my friend. This is INCREDIBLE. This is Truth. This is what all of Creation is longing for. Especially me. I always struggle with this life. My flesh fights. I want life to be easy. I want to solely dwell upon Beauty, Nature, Friends, Family, Food, Luxury and not be concerned with the Pain, Dark, Evil that consumes most of Creation. I mostly want direct communication with the Trinity. I want to know the mysteries of life. I want to feel FULLY loved. For YAHWEH to take me by the hand and heal me and then show me the Wonders of the world. Humans can only fulfill so much of what we are longing for. "If I find in my heart a desire which nothing on earth can satisfy, my only logical conclusion is that I was made for another world." - cs lewis
I have been having some strange anxiety lately. The kind where I wake up and feel a HEAVY pressure on my chest. I feel physically the weight of all the things that I have to do and all the things that are not as I wish in my life. It's an unsettling feeling. I then proceed to the porch to have it out with God. Letting Him know that I feel this way, but I know different in my head (that HE is in control of all,) but that I still feel this way and I need Him to fight these battles for me. This day comes and goes and I could wake the next day feeling FULL of life. It is a strange dance. I heard some words of Truth last night, "As your day is, so HIS strength is." I believe it. I just want to feel it and see it MORE.
I can't wait to hear more from GOD. The Protector. The Life Giver. My Strength. My GRACE. "Love ( God ) was with me. He protected me. Thats not the first time He has and it’s not the last time He will. His love is fierce..a force to be reckoned with. His love is stronger than my fear..stronger than the unknowns of the future..stronger than the angels, the demons..you name it." This was from my friend Sarah's Blog. You can find her words here: http://sarahaltemus.wordpress.com