Monday, September 6, 2010

The Faithfulness of God

Lest I forget whom I serve. My God/Creator/Lover is truly out of this world.

This year has been one of the toughest of my life. (As if you haven't been able to pick up on that.) Money has grown scarce and faith razor thin. This year has pushed me in ways that I never expected. I got what I wanted from God, to full-time run my own business. Only to find that it swallowed me whole and spit me out tumbled and confused. Oh the irony.

I fasted a Daniel fast back in March. A very hard time for me, bc as you may know I am in LOVE with food. At the end of the fast NOTHING changed. Nothing happened. Things got HARDER and I was confused. But I held on to the fact that in Daniel, he said it took him three week to receive the answer that he prayed for. In those three weeks there was spiritual warfare. A battle in the heavenly places. I tried to imagine that, as I clenched my jaw and barreled through life. Head down, but heart open.... believing in a better day.

As of late, it seems as though the clouds have parted a bit and blessings are mine. A week ago Sunday I got a call at 12:30p to be on a 3:15p flight to LA. I worked at an event that was a total train wreck from my perspective. But the people running the event were happy. There is a supposed check in the mail that will be almost twice what I was getting paid at GMS. There is a possibility that I can work with them on an on-going basis. I have requested once or twice a month. If this happens it will be a huge answer to prayer. The burden of feeling at every moment of the day that I can't pay my bills is crushing, not only to my wallet, but to my ego.

I had a moment a few weeks ago in church, where I heard God say...."I have better for you....coming. Hang in there." And I'm glad I did. There is nothing like getting more that what you expected.

Not only did I work this event, but I had a friend Lori G. on my first flight to Denver, my flight was oversold to LA so I got a voucher for $400 and immediately after that got a call from my dearest friend Halie Clark that she was in the DENVER airport in the same terminal. It felt like Christmas Day.

Since then I have been working on the Status Community Market, which is coming together really so smoothly. I am so excited to see what my church community will produce.

This past weekend was the Euphoria Fashion Show. This is what I am made for. I loved every minute of it. The fittings, the styling, backstage, hair and make up & the last minute panic. It went really well. Jana was by my side and it was an experience for us both. I had 18 guys debut our Gentleman's Collection. They all looked amazing. I have met some amazing people and have felt like a really positive influence on them. Just excited to see what God is going to do with me in these situations.

And today it's back to reality. It's life. And I am never in doubt that I NEED Christ every step of the way.

Random: For Me.

Well look who I found today. A rare photo of a lovely lady.

~ IT's raining and I'm supposed to be swimming laps. But let's just say I don't feel like it. It just feels like a day for a blog.
~It labor Day and I was "Laboring" today. Which seem like such a farce to me. Because I often feel real work is manual labor and it's so far from what I do. I am forever grateful for that. I am also forever grateful to those who actually "Labor" on my behalf. I am happy for the person who rises at 5 am to milk the cows to bring me my 1% Organic Milk. I am grateful to to person who works at the plant to make me my recycled paper/toilet paper. I am thankful for the person who works at a hot mechanics shop and fixes my car when I need it. I am aware and humbled to the hundreds of real workers that founded this Great Nation. That must have taken everything they had in them and more.
~I do appreciate hard work and working with my hands, but I am glad that my job doesn't require me to do this 8 hours a day, day in and day out.
~I've been going through my itunes all day and deleting stuff I don't like/don't listen too. It is amazing how much music I have that I don't listen to/have forgotten. But at this moment the sounds of the rain and the wet cars driving by is seducing me.
~My parents are staying with me for a bit. And it's hilarious. They just take over whatever area they are in. It's just a whirlwind of stuff. It feels a little claustrophobic, but I can handle it. Also I am sleeping on the couch. Which makes me remember just how wonderful my bed is.
~IT's my friend Sean Even Day's Birthday today. 21 as it were. But it's like he's been 21 since he was 16. ha. In some ways.
~More than ever my friends are having kids. I held a sweet London Rose in my arms last night and just about melted. She was made by my friends Kirk and Brandi Michelle. She will return to work tomorrow and he will be a stay at home dad. This intrigues me so. I am looking forward to being a mom, but I don't know that I can handle it for 24 hours a day.
~Jana's Home and it just feels so right.
~I just added myself as following my own blog!? Ummm DUH?


Bikes, Boomboxes on Bikes and RAP. On repeat.

Humdrum Town

That is what this place feels like with so much rain this Summer..