"Either he will hate the one and love the other or he will be devoted to the one and despise the other. You cannot serve both God and money." Matt 6:24
Simply put but not as easy to eradicate from your life. I saw these words today and it hit home as this has been weighing heavy on me for the past few months. I am not sure if this subtle evilness has silently crept into my life/heart. I don't feel like my main goal in life is to make money and I feel I have a healthy habit of giving from the heart. BUT is my life too comfortable...or better put am I staying where I am because it's comfortable? I have most definitely been blessed to have a rather interesting/unique job that has now gotten to the place that pays well, but is now slowly killing me. I don't have any desire for this to be my career, but the money is good and the schedule works for me. But I fear I stay because it makes my life comfortable instead of seeking out the passions that God has put in my heart. (I will say that it is a blessing because it does allow me free time to do some of the things I do love.) I also question where is the level of comfort that God truly wants us to be. No matter how much money I make.....millions, billlions, whatever....I could give it all away to better the lives of others and leave me in poverty again. We could always do more, give more, love more. And where do I stand in that? I just feel lacking. I do believe that is an individualized plan for each person and God knows what that is. But I feel I don't exactly have that understood in my life. All I know is that I feel God is requiring more of me. I don't know what this will look like, but I do know that He has more in store for me than I could ever imagine. I guess I have left imagining at the door a long time ago.
Two more verses that are challenging me right now:
"You do not realize now what I am doing, but later you will understand." John 13:7
"Test me in this...and see if I will not open the floodgates of heaven and pour out so much blessing that you will not have room enough for it." Malachi 3:10